So after five months of discussions, organising, and waiting around we are FINALLY moving to the USA! 

For the last five months my lovely friends have had their ears chewed off with all my nerves, excitement and vents!! It doesn't actually feel real that we will be living in another country next week! 

This week has been emotionally draining, which was expected, but still hard. Packing up all our belongings and emptying the house we have lived in for the last 7 years caused a lot of tears! The boys have handled it as well as they can, but you can tell they feel a little out of sorts. It's been hard to watch and the guilt trickles in. 

Sitting here now, knowing that the bags are nearly packed, things are in boxes in the loft or been dumped, makes you realise quite how much rubbish you store! 

This is the biggest thing either of us have done in our whole lives. It's exciting, nerve wracking, emotional, hard, and damn scary. But if we don't do it, we would regret it! 

It has certainly been made harder by being pregnant at the same time of trying to re organise our life! It has shown me that i am stronger than i think, and i can just switch off the emotions when i need to. But i know i wouldn't be able to be this strong without Dave being as cool as a cucumber and our family being so helpful. 

Telling the kids was hard, but i tried to break it into them when we first knew about it. As it all happened around the same sort of time of me finding out about the pregnancy and the move, i would do little conversations in the car like "wouldn't it be funny to have another child in the house" or "wouldn't it be good to live in America?" This seemed to help when we sat them down and said about it. At first we thought it would be our eldest who would be most affected, but it's actually knocked the youngest confidence a little. Seeing them get used to the idea over the last few weeks has been encouraging though. They don't understand the gravity of it at the moment, they just see all the chaos and have dealt with it well. 

Their last day at school was more emotional for me than them, saying goodbye to mums that i have gotten to know and their children. Really hard! 

Leaving work was hard, i loved working in the pub i was in, and felt like i had a second family there! 

Tomorrow is the last hurrah, Then we have one more night before we enter a country we have only ever been tourists in. We are so nervous, but so excited at the same time. It's certainly been emotional, and will continue to be for a long time yet! 

So even though i have said goodbye to most of my friends this week, i want to say thank you and that i am going to miss you all! it's been a very overwhelming week, and i certainly wouldn't be here feeling confident about the move without all your input. 

Hoping to update this page a little more regularly from now! 

CIAO for now!!