Life begins at 30!

So here i am, cooking the boys dinner at 4.12pm. Because they get off their bus at 4.30, have to get changed into their football kit, and out the door for 5.15. We aren't back until 8pm as both of them have training within half an hour of each other, at different locations! 
Finn is fast asleep on the sofa, after a mammoth screaming session for the last hour, only to be relieved by one almighty belch! 
All of a sudden, it dawns on me, in about 43 days i will no longer be in my twenties!! It feels ok though, i'm quite looking forward to no longer apologizing to my friends that i am indeed younger than them! 
Time has gone so quick, i'm not even sure how i've gotten here! I was a write off at school because they didn't diagnose my dyslexia, so apart from making some good friends, i didn't really enjoy the experience. Cadets was my escape from school and as much as i was a shy, naive teenager, I loved it! I have lots of regrets about how i handled some things during my teenage years, but as the saying goes. I wouldn't be who i am without that. 
Introducing myself over here and talking about me, travelling to Nepal and climbing the Himalayas, getting a gliding scholarship, having a baby and getting married so young... it doesn't feel like i've accomplished all of that.  But it feels really good that i have.
Ten years ago Dave and i first met, it's absolutely insane! He's my everything. I have blinked and all of a sudden we are in America, with three kids under my belt! Sorry but huh?! I still think i'm 17 and carefree! 
I would say, i would go back and tell myself stuff that i should have done differently but, whats the point?! I'm not perfect, i'm just me. I wish i stopped trying to please everyone and just felt confident in myself to be friends with people, but i didn't. Today, i'm just me! I like to look after people, i love listening to people! That was such a perk about being a waitress, i could indulge on my thrill of people watching!
Watching the boys grow up, i get worried that Lucas especially is going to be like me, a worrier! Which he is, but he's also a boy, with a lot less problems than a girls emotions! 
So, dinner is burning, the bus is arriving and i'm sitting here procrastinating! Time to be a grown up! 

Love to all 
xx

Six months in!

At this exact moment six months ago, the four of us were sitting on a plane! I was balling my eyes out and the boys were entranced with the films being shown.
When i look back and think of how much we had to do in order to get here, i'm amazed we managed it. It's a weird feeling, we've have settled into a routine again, but it still doesn't feel like home.
Having Finlay here keeps me busy and summer was so manic with people coming over and getting through the ten week holiday, whereas now it's just me and him!
So i bumped into a woman in a local shop and noticed she had an English accent! It's funny how you get a little kick in your stomach just for hearing a English accent!! She had come over with her three children one week ago, her husband was American! I found myself giving her advice on where to go and what to look at, which felt really strange considering i have only just come over! I gave my details if she ever wanted to get in touch, but nothing heard yet.
So i'm finding myself indulging in any British things that are in the stores, Bisto at $5 a pop, or ginger nut biscuits at $2! I am playing Radio 1 on my phone just to listen to some music that i am used to! But i have embraced the nachos, copious amounts of burgers and ribs, and cookie dough ice cream!!
We have made some great friends over here aswell, our lovely neighbours have been such a help over the summer, the boys have played with their two boys every single day! Our friends from the bus stop  for school have introduced Dave to a Saturday night gaming night! Socially we are doing well! We can't replace our friends over in the UK but we can certainly add to them! I don't feel embarrassed to invite people over to my house, which was always the issue in the UK. If it wasn't for blimmin football every weekend i think we would have a lot more people over!

This year is going to be very strange for Christmas. We can't afford to come home so we are staying here. I'm looking forward to seeing some snow, but dreading it at the same time! I'm hoping it isn't going to be as bad as last years one. We arrived at the end of winter where it was slightly warmer it was still snowing, but not as cold! I'm really really dreading it!
The weather this summer has been lovely, we have had a lot of warm days and got a nice tan! The temperature has now dropped a bit and is starting to get a bit stormy.
The school has only just opened today after it being off for four days, We luckily had our power back on Saturday but there is still lots of people without!

The boys have been doing really well at football. They struggled initially with the different terminology, but have got to grips with it. They have training twice a week and matches at the weekend. Dave plays on a Sunday, so i really have become a full time soccer mum! I've even got my own cooler and camping chair to sit on!!

Finlay is doing well, he's got really big and is cooing a lot now. His smiles can melt anyones heart, but he has started crying when i leave the room!
I was livid at the weekend as i was told at the gym i couldn't watch Ollie in his swimming lessons, because i had Finn with me. He is three months old but has to be a member of the gym in order to watch his brother swim! I also couldn't put him in the creche' for the same reason!! Needless to say we are looking for another gym as i refuse to pay and extra $20 a month for Finn to join a gym, even though he can't walk, talk, or even feed himself!!!

Anyway, everything is fine! Plodding on as usual!

Love to everyone
xxx